May 19, 2020

He Said “No.”

All hope evaporates from my chest and releases, rain falling from my eyes.

Me: “I don’t know what to do with this.”

The Knowing: silence. rocking. feeling the blank lightning in my heart.

Me:” I don’t know what to do with this.”

The Knowing: still silent. still rocking. still feeling.

Me: “I don’t know what to do with this.”

The Knowing:…”Love without abandon, enormously, as you’ve been shown by him.”

Me: “I don’t know how.”

The Knowing: “I’ll show you how. You tried. Well done.”